Suffocated

Do you ever have the feeling that you literally cannot breath?
Do you ever have the feeling that you heart is so pain it blinds you?
Do you ever have the feeling that you might faint anytime, and you do not want to wake up?
Do you ever have the feeling that you hate yourself, a lot?

I do. I feel like dying now. I want to eat non-stop. I need ice-cream right now. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to punch. I want to kill. I want to die.

It's unbearable when I am in great pain, but there is no ice-cream, no space for me to breath, no one for me to speak to, and the worst, I'm tearless. You have no idea, that agony that is stabbing my heart right now, is way out of bound.

I need to drive out now, to somewhere, wherever that has no body to look at me, to tell me I'm wrong loving you.

You don't know I'm waiting for you. FUCK.